I now have to face the fact that I’m pushing 70. Many of my friends are either around the same age or have already passed on, including of course my life-partner who passed to Spirit at the relatively early age of 48.
I feel I am a lot wiser at this age and that I have learnt a lot from experience, including from my mistakes, of which there are quite a few. This, I believe, is the main reason we are here. To learn and progress.
Of course some people would say I am not wiser at all; that as I get older I get more and more weird and have exchanged a scientific formula for the continued evolution of human society (atheistic Marxism-Leninism) for ‘pie in the sky when you die’. Adopting along the way along with Survivalism (non-religious Spiritualism) all sorts of weird and wonderful conspiracy theories and beliefs, including UFOs, extraterrestial contact and alien abductions (I believe there have been abductions to carry out genetic and other experiments, but that the various UFO visitors are essentially non-hostile. Some could be time machines from our own future.)
I let others judge and make their own conclusions, and as Rhett Butler said in ‘Gone With The Wind’ whatever their opinions of me ‘Frankly, I couldn’t give a damn!’
Each person must find their own way and their own belief or non-belief systems, but we can learn from experience, from our mistakes and from each other.
I don’t accept things unless there is convincing evidence supporting them. For instance, my journey from traditional atheism to being convinced of the afterlife (though I still don’t believe in God, or Satan for that matter) did not come about overnight when I lost my partner. It is not, I would say, down to wishful thinking or clinging to nice fairy tales like a belief in Santa Claus or, indeed, in real fairies (not the camp variety!) at the bottom of my, er… allotment (don’t have a garden.)
Long before my life-partner passed to Spirit I came across a book called ‘Psychic Discoveries Behind The Iron Curtain’ by Sheila Ostrander and Lynn Schroeder. In that book (and remember I was at that time a hard-line, atheistic member of the British Communist Party with no belief in an afterlife) I learnt how atheistic science in the Soviet Union and the Socialist countries had discovered, among other things, that all living creatures and plants had a second body, an ‘energy body’ if you like. Soviet scientists dubbed this energy body ‘bioplasma’ and photographed it with a system of electronic field photography named after its Soviet inventor in the 1930s, Semyon Kirlian. In some experiments it seemed the bioplasma body could survive damage to the physical body, and illnesses, etc. showed up in the bioplasma long before they manifested in the physical.
This opened my mind to the possibility that the Spiritualists and religious people were right, and all living things had a Spirit, astral body, soul or whatever. Of course there are many debunkers of Kirlian photography who claim it shows nothing paranormal at all, since inanimate objects like coins also show an ‘aura’ under electronic field photography, and this ‘aura’ also disappears in a vaccuum. However I am sure Soviet scientists investigated all this, and indeed photographs of the ‘aura’ of coins were depicted in the book or in a magazine article I read about the same time on Kirlian photography, and the ‘aura’ produced by inanimate objects was different to that produced by living organisms. In any case according to Survivalist/Spiritualist evidence, everything, including apparently inanimate objects, are permeated by the life-force which creates all matter. Or rather the ILLUSION of matter, for solid matter doesn’t even exist.
Whether Kirlian photography really photographed the ‘astral body’ of living things or not is perhaps immaterial in my case as it opened my otherwise closed mind to the possibility precisely because it came from ‘behind the Iron Curtain’ which were officially societies based on no-nonsense atheism.
Since then I have discovered much more conclusive evidence that all living things survive death, not least Near Death and Out of the Body experiences, Remote Viewing and After Death Contacts by various methods. All these also have their debunkers, but all these debunkers are very selective about what evidence they are willing to examine. Just take NDEs (Near Death Experiences) for example. Debunkers say they are merely hallucinations produced by the dying brain through lack of oxygen, or because of drugs being administered to the dying patient. If this were the case how can the patient while unconscious and flatlining accurately report seeing and hearing events, people and objects in and around their vicinity while clinically ‘dead’? This has been proved time and time again. It’s all very well reporting seeing tunnels and bright lights, then meeting granny in the afterlife, but this can’t be proved. If, however, you see a blue tennis shoe on a ledge of the hospital and it is later retrieved (Seattle, USA), or see and hear what nurses and doctors are doing in the operating theater, describing what instruments they used, or what relatives and friends in adjoining rooms were saying, wearing and doing, then it must be real. If people blind from birth see for the first time and accurately describe things and colors after having an NDE, then something very strange is going on. OOBEs (out-of-the-body experiences) and Remote Viewing confirm this. The CIA and other intelligence services have used Remote Viewers to spy on facilities in other countries, in the case of the CIA places thousands of miles away in the old Soviet Union. The information obtained by Remote Viewers has later been verified by actual photographs of the places they somehow visited without leaving the room/laboratory.
I won’t go into more evidence here for mind, consciousness and the ability to see, hear, smell, etc. being separate, or able to separate, from the physical body, but it is quite overwhelming if you research into it. Moreover it is backed up by Quantum Physics theory which says matter to exist has to have a conscious observer, and the latest scientific theories in the quantum area point to Consciousness being at the heart of everything.
We already knew, since Einstein at least, that solid matter was an illusion created by a system of vibrations holding sub-atomic particles together. This correlates with Survivalist/Spiritualist concepts of different planes of existence vibrating at different rates, or with Quantum theory about other dimensions interpenetrating our own but on different wavelengths. Much as a radio or TV tuned to one station cannot pick up other stations until you re-tune it.
As to UFOs and extraterrestial contact, I realized this was a reality after reading the books of Major Donald E. Keyhoe of the USAF. Indeed Admiral Roscoe Henry Hillenkoetter, first Director of the CIA and quoted in Keyhoe’s books, was quoted in the New York Times way back in 1959 as saying: ‘These UFOs are interplanetary devices systematically observing the earth.’ Indeed this conclusion was reached back in the 1940s, and according to Keyhoe the Admiral at that time ordered the conclusion kept secret for fear of causing panic. Much more recently NASA astronaut and scientist, Dr Ed Mitchell (who walked on the Moon) has confirmed the reality of UFOs and ongoing contact with the aliens operating them, and that a real UFO crashed in Roswell in the United States in the 1940s and was recovered. Dr Mitchell has said this on a UK radio station, among other places.
As to the various conspiracy theories about the deaths of JFK, his brother Robert, Marilyn Monroe, Martin Luther King, Diana Spencer (former Princess of Wales), about 9/11 and many other events, people must look at the evidence and decide for themselves, at least until whistle-blowers come out in the open or even more evidence becomes available. For many of these conspiracy theories much evidence is already there if only you research it, and the Internet is a wonderful uncensored tool for doing this.
So I would say I am most definitely older and wiser as I base my opinions on studying the evidence, not on wishful thinking. Indeed it is perhaps those who do not believe in an afterlife who are the wishful thinkers. It would be very easy to accept that we only live for a relatively short period then return to oblivion, with no consequences, nor karma to face. Do what we like, hurt who we like, just make money and enjoy ourselves at other people’s expense possibly, and no comebacks. Indeed kill as many people as we like in order to gain our materialistic objectives, and again, no comebacks or karma to face in an afterlife.
That’s more-or-less how I regarded things back when I was a traditional atheist, though being a humanist and Communist I was not interested in personal gain at the expense of others. However I did believe the end justified the means, hence my acceptance of Stalinist methods in a mistaken attempt to create Communism. I even called for the rehabilitation of Stalin thinking his positive achievements outweighed the negative ones. I no longer feel this, in fact the very opposite. Stalin did more to destroy Socialism (not just Communism) than anybody else on the planet, apart from possibly Pol Pot in Cambodia/Kampuchea.
I’m not sure what I’d call myself now, agnostic perhaps is the best term. I know there’s an afterlife because of the overwhelming personal and other evidence for it, but I’ve seen no evidence of a personal God. What I have discovered is evidence for some kind of Conscious Energy behind everything, a Mind separate from matter, which indeed creates and organizes the illusion of matter in this Universe and other dimensions. Scientists who think outside the box, like Ronad Pearson, have formulated theories which encompass the so-called paranormal. His theories have been published in Russian scientific journals, among other places. He doesn’t talk of ‘God’ but of the ‘intelligent ether’ or ‘i-ther’ as a matrix permeating everything. Moreover his theories seem to be mathematically correct, and need none of the adjustments and inventions of things such as ‘dark energy’ which Einstein orthodox science needs to constantly come up with to try to explain the accelarating expansion of the Universe. Albert Einsten himself, before he died, admitted he felt he had probably got a lot of things wrong, but orthodox science is reluctant to admit they are in a cul-de-sac – too much research money and other funding depends on them accepting the outdated orthodox scientific theories and staying clear of ‘woo-woo’ concepts. These are concepts orthodox scientists are told never to speak about or investigate, though an increasing number do so privately.
However there’s nothing unsual about this. Most big scientific turn-arounds have started off as heresy or maverick theories, and their original discoverers mocked and derided at the time. Galileo who said the Earth was not the center of the Universe with the stars and planets revolving around it was one of these.
As to my politics, some would say I’ve come full circle. Resigning from the Communist Party of Great Britain in 1976, I’ve now rejoined a small group called the Provisional Central Committee for the Communist Party of Great Britain. However it differs from the old Party in many ways. It is much less dogmatic, and the main reason I joined was because it is the ONLY leftwing organization in the UK that does not reject the European Union, but on the contrary, sees the need ultimately for an EU-wide Communist Party when the EU becomes a United States of Europe. I am strongly in favor of a federal Europe and a single currency, being an internationalist, though of course I would much prefer a Socialist European federal republic (that too may come in time, probably as a break-away group from the EU itself initially.)
I remain a Socialist and a Marxist and have learnt from the experience and mistakes of the Socialist countries of the 20th Century. The two main lessons I have learnt in this respect is to do with pluralism and rejection of a monolithic political and economic system. A Socialist Constitution could protect the Dictatorship of the Proleteriat (though I prefer another term as minorities also have rights usually denied by any form of ‘dictatorship’.) A one-Party state or a one-Party dominated coalition makes infiltration and corruption almost inevitable, so a multi-party state with free elections is essential, albeit under the Socialist Constitution, which could only be revoked in a referendum. I also prefer trying alternatives to the Soviet-style State monopoly model for public ownership, which was also adopted in countries like Britain in the 1940s. This is inefficient and bureaucratic for most industries, though may be suitable for a few like the railways and banking. Free elections with rival political parties would allow various Socialist models to be experimented with. I personally favor the former Yugoslav model of worker/consumer cooperatives and smaller publicly owned enterprises all competing in a friendly, healthy Socialist market place.
So lessons learnt in all spheres, and I hope to continue learning and evolving in this world and the next ones. Spiritual development and evolution is the key to everything, that, above all, is what I have learnt in over 66 years on this planet.